Finding Myself

While pulling out tiny pieces from my chest of memories, I found myself. As I reflected over each trinket, each moment of laughter and fun shared with my children, and grasped tightly to the pearls of wisdom, the precious gem of God’s Word had wrapped me in a whirlwind of faith, prayer, love, mercy, grace and the Love of God barreling me through the tunnels of darkness that my life had been so surrounded with. As a result, I realize every treasure I’ve held dear, forgotten, thrown away, or burned has made me who I am today. The key to each treasure is to keep the things that help and discord or destroy the things that hurt and don’t forget to remember the lessons learned from each.

In life, there are hidden treasures' that may never be uncovered or discovered unless there is some digging, prodding, or drastic excavation measures taken. However, we are not the ones to know what tools are to be used. Some are buried so deep into our hearts and minds that we do not want to expose them for fear of what others might learn. But until we trust in God's Word, Romans 8:28, “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” We may never know the true essence of God’s Love nor the depth to which he teaches us to love. God used His Precious love to open my heart to the painful memories stored deep within. He allowed me to experience the devastating effects of adultery and mistrust to see that I have the power through him to forgive and not be destroyed by Satan. 

What I didn’t understand at first was that each phase of my life, whether good or bad was allowed by God and through his Holy Spirit, the Comforter and Lover of my soul kept me and drew me closer to him. My children are the greatest treasures I have no matter the circumstances. They are a gift from God through rearing them I learned so much because I had to stay on my knees, constantly read the word of God and listen to Him speak to me. As I released them into His care I had fewer worries and many blessings. I learned the virtues that God wanted in me for His Glory. I have been able to burn, the painful unfaithfulness of my mate, not become bitter and resentful but receive the purging, healing, breaking forth, and evolving of the person that is within. That through it all God loved my husband through me and kept me safe as my husband received salvation. He wrapped me in the fireball of His love and I survived knowing that God keeps on blessing me through His love. My heart is again filled with laughter, joy, and a smile that generates deep within.

                                                Thought for Today 

Take a moment to reflect upon your life, remembering who kept you through the past, brought you to the present, and will carry you into the future. God