The title Morning Dove was chosen because of the cry this
beautiful bird makes in the early morning. Because of their cry it is called
the Mourning Dove. If you can imagine, you can hear the sound muffled in
their throat. When you hear it, it alerts you to your surroundings. Therefore,
I felt that this dove was describing my emotions.
At the point of losing my
home in foreclosure, fighting to keep a roof over my husband and daughter, (we
received the victory) my husband having several strokes, plus aneurysm, fall
and the revelation of three children or more that he fathered during our
marriage all I could do was mourn. Each time I became pregnant he would be
angry then I understood why. Tears would not have helped because I was too
hurt, disappointed and broken. Sleep often eluded me because three of my
children literally stopped speaking to me and forbade their family from interacting
with me. Sometimes I felt I would fall down beneath the weight or that the
hounds of hell would overrun me with destruction. Many nights I would pray
pleading with God to tell me what had I done so wrong. He would either speak to
my spirit with a song or word which would allow me to rest. The negativity my
husband was speaking against me; I think some of the children believed but the
hurt came because I thought they knew me better. I had prayed with them, for
them, over them loved on them, often talked to them about salvation and
breaking of yokes in the family. Yet Satan used them to try to destroy me but
God, do you understand but God?
The good news is that God has a damage control mechanism
that man does not understand and it is called love. God never stopped allowing me
to feel his love, even when all I could say is I love you Jesus or sing
beautiful songs he had put in my spirit. I now thank him over and over again
for being the Lover of my soul. The protector of my heart and life. For the
five children that never wavered in their love nor constant calling to let me
know how much they loved me. Needless to say that two are what society calls
in-laws but I could never address any of my children mates as that because they
two became one and I would not have my beautiful grandchildren. So like the
mourning dove I have stopped the mourning cry and my wings are getting stronger
each day ready to sour to the skies knowing that God loves me and he gave me
the healing mechanism I needed but did not know I did. I can say thou the evil
one sought to slay yet shall I praise Him for His goodness and blessings.
Sometimes you have to speak what the heart feels, in order for you to be truly
healed.
Scripture: Romans
8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God,
to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Open the Treasures of Memories
Unlock the chest of memories
and pick through the treasures of life,
Reflect on the times of
laughter, hold close the gift of love,
Keep the trinkets of fun,
cherish the moments of kindness,
Forgive others for their
wrongs as you forgive yourself also.
Remember the pearls of
wisdom you gathered along the way,
Hold close the diamond of prayer
that keeps’ you day by day,
Polish the silver of hope
that strengthen on this journey,
And cherish the gold of
faith that lights your path.
Don’t become bitter over
things that cannot be undone,
Rid yourself of the debris
and open up your heart,
You may find a wealth of
blessings and richness beyond compare;
For you have survived and
may find again the rare gem of love.
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